This Mama's Heart is Hurting

I got a voicemail from Trand today. I knew he was probably calling, but I wasn't too worried if I missed it because when he stops in towns, he always stays for a night. I figured if I missed it, I'd hear from him later. I was playing in the pool with the kids when he called.

When I listened to the message, my heart dropped. He was very upset and lonely. He really needed to talk to someone. He said he'd been alone for a week. His voice was cracking, and he just kept saying, "This isn't the time for you not to answer." UGH!!!!! My heart is breaking. Apparently, there is no where [cheap] to stay in North Adams, MA. So he is continuing on. He said, "I guess I'll talk to you in Stormville, NY in a week." He said that he needed body glide really badly (for chaffing) and he doesn't know how he's going to continue on without it. And that's my fault because he asked me to send it. With all the craziness of packages getting missed, I just had his other packages forwarded to N Adams and completely forgot about the body glide!! It's sitting right here at my house to send. I feel so badly. Looking at my AT book, it says that Stormville is 150 miles from where he is now. I don't know how he'll make it that far without the body glide. 

Please pray for him. And pray for me. I'm having a really hard time right now. I just want to hop on a plane and go find him. I might just do that if I didn't have five more kids here who need me. I don't know that I've ever heard him sound so desperate. I know that God has this. I know that God knows what he needs more than I do. I pray that he is finding comfort in God's word and God's presence. But oh, everything in me wants to go find him. I'm praying that God will send someone to him to be a friend.  I'm also praying that he will find someone who has something to help him with the chaffing. I can't imagine how much that hurts day after day. So with physical pain on top of the emotional hardships going on right now, he's not doing great. This next week will be very slow and very hard. Please help me cover him with prayer. 

In looking at his next stop, I don't see a place for him to stay there either. Not sure what rationale he's using to pick these stopping places!! I really hope I don't miss his next call. If I talk to him at least I could tell him to go to a hotel, and we would put the money in his account for him. Ugh, I just need him to feel better. 

Okay, not such a great report, but thank you for praying. Lots of tears today.